Hard to Say Goodbye





Time starts counting down. It will be my last week in UCONN after this weekend.I can’t figure out how many times it has been when I stepped on the fallen leaves of those maple trees, heading towards the classroom with the cute squirrels staring alertly at me on the branch. I don’t know how many times it has been when I stood by the window of analytical laboratory waiting for the readout of a spectrometer, looking at the Swan Lake beside the chemistry building and appreciating the beautiful sunshine outside. I can’t figure out how many times I walked into the North Dinning Hall waiting in a line for the delicious omelet or chicken stir fry, and how many afternoons I have spent in the study lounge looking up the words in my biochemistry book. Time flies, bringing away the pages of calendar, and leaving me the best memories of the past days.
Yet I still remember those earliest emails I received from UCONN Education Abroad eleven months ago, which instructed me how to finish a syllabus substitution form. Since then Sara’s name has become a symbol of UCONN to me. I still remember during those days my best effort to translate the syllabi provided by my teachers into English, and my worrying whether there would be any grammatical mistakes in the emails I sent to UCONN. Something went wrong with my MyHousing account just half a day before the deadline of housing application, but it got fixed just some hours after I sent the email to Residential Life. I took the interview of visa application on a hot summer day, and was surprised at the high processing efficiency which enabled me to get my visa just four days later. Everything happened just like it took place one day before.
Never will I forget the feeling of swinging back and forth by Mirror Lake, the small rainbows beside the fountain under sunshine, and the reflection of trees on that small island on the glinting surface of water. Leaves turned from green to red and bright yellow in autumn. I took photos for them, keeping them in my memory card, and in my memory. Once upon a time I went to UCONN official website and saw a photo of the whole campus taken from high in the sky. It was in the beginning of this year, and I was attracted by a spherical building which I found so unique. Eight months later when standing at the entrance of Gampel Pavilion I could hardly believe how fast time passes.
If only I could have one more minute, I would walk to every corner of the campus, reading the stories of each old building, and looking for the small squirrels in the maple trees.
If only I could have one more minute, I would sit on that swing again, back and forth letting the breeze bring away all my worries and sadness.
If only I could have one more minute, I would go up to the small hill behind North Campus, sitting on the grass, doing nothing but to see the beautiful sunset, and the colors changing at the very border of the sky.
Yet I know that minute may never come after this month. Hardly can I figure out when I will be here next time. I would come back, if I could have that chance, to see the appearance of new Student Recreation Center, to buy a post card in bookstore, to pick a maple leaf as my bookmark, and to walk into the ball room of Student Union, recalling that day in summer with delicious ice-creams, hugs with Sara and Katrina on that Wednesday, and my best memories in University of Connecticut.

Written by: Xingyu Zhou 

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